Angel ... love conquers all

 Sometimes someone has to be a little broken to see a truth that the rest of us can not see.  Angel seems to have no jealous bone in her body.   I sent her a couple of drunken emails last night after the bar scene with Kim.   She actually encouraged me...

Got Drunk Last Night ... Okay Today

 Stopped by the bar on the way home from tennis.  Had two beers and was about to go, when a woman sat down.  Kim talked, I listened.  Way too many beers later she gave me her phone number and asked me to call her.  Last night it seemed like a good...

Cried My Share Today

 Today it was official, Julie is going on hospice, the nurse is on her way as I type. It was a difficult journey for Julie physically.  I woke at 4 am today and went down and checked on her.  She was having chest pains, indigestion I think.  I...

Old Lovers

 Took my sister in law back to the airport.  Beautiful person, great to get to know her. Called Shari, the last person I loved before Internet Lover.   Never slept with Shari, although we went pretty far on the verbal side,  I'll spare you the...

Dreams or the Princess

 Once there was a fair maiden, Judy.  She was intelligent and played marvelous sexy games with the Prince.  She even went off the birth control pills so the Prince would image small princoids, named Robert Junior, running around the castle.  He loved...

She Liked Her Dream Better

 In days of old, when maidens were fair, I feel in love, I thought, with a young damsel named Judy.  Judy and I played marvelous sexual games and kept me on the edge for hours at a time.  She kept me interested when she went off birth control pills,...

My Marriage ... to its end

 Five minutes after I met Julie, I decide to marry her.  I didn't get to tell her because she went off dancing with another guy.  But, I told her on our first date, she took it as date talk, being silly, but I went home and wrote a poem for our...

Internet Lover

For the few that follow my blog, you know that I had an internet lover starting in February of this year.  In early August, she made a commitment to try to make her marriage/family/kids work.  She has been in the background carrying more load than she...

Dancing Added to the Morning Ritual

 I get up every morning between 6 and 7 am, go down give my wife a drink of water, asked how she is, if she is in pain.  She almost answers "I'm OK."  I study her face to form my own opinion. I raise her hospital bed to where she is sitting up....

Called Julie's Sister about Julie Slipping Away

 Well, I called Julie's sister, Laura, last night to let her know how fast Julie was slipping away.  Almost before I could get a word out, she went into a list of all the things happening in her life, mostly that she had to help her dad move on...

Soap Opera, 101, Act 2: Reckless Driving Jorge

Soap Opera, 101, Act 2  Well when Jorge took my daughter to work, she says he drove like a madman ... high speeds and angry, running stop signs, etc.  Now my daughter is prone to exaggeration, but Jorge's action were premeditated starting with...

Soap Opera

I think my daughter's boyfriend, Jorge, is having a nervous breakdown. My daughter was out with friends for the night avoiding him.  He had become too dependent for her liking.  He spent the night at our house with my okay while my daughter stayed...

To Share Their Tears

Sitting in the doctor's office Getting pain patches for Julie I heard the news come down A girl in her thirties LEUKEMIA It echoed off the walls and screamed in my head Her hubby and daughter all of six or so Held her in...

Advise from my daughter on my love prospects

 Olesia was talking to me about our dentist.  My guess is that he is in his early 50's, average looking guy to me, makes a good living.   He comes to the Pizza place Olesia works at with his girl friend.  She describes her as a gold-digger, in...

Thoughts Boycott over Facebook Button

 Okay, a lot of us do no like the Facebook button.  We are the customers, let's not underestimate our power. Let's do a boycott of Thoughts over this.  We will start small, a 24 hour boycott on the 24th.  No one use Thoughts for 24 hours starting...

Facebook Crisis

 I just used the magic facebook button on one of my posts. Well, below the header you supply, it give a link back to Thoughts in my case...  www.thoughts.com/rroe/blogtitle . There is a whole lot I publish here that I would be in deep...

Rotating the Plate ... revised

 Today when my wife ate lunch, she only ate out of one spot on the plate.  I kept rotating the plate until she ate most of the food.  I had to move some from the center to the radius she was eating from, which was on the edge of the plate.  She either...

I'm Okay

 In the up and down of life, I am struggling some at the moment, but I am okay.  I have a strong core and a life time of confidence.   Life is not always supposed to be easy.  We define ourselves by how we manage the difficult times.  My experience...

A New Level of Intimacy Copyright Invoked

This work is protected by the Copyright Laws of the U.S. and may not be copied, reproduced, or distributed without the author's written permission.  My wife is dying.  How long it will take, who knows.  I am getting drunk on a drink...

Caught in the Storm Revised 1

Caught in a storm Of my own making Acted true in all that I have done In a world that makes no sense And enforces it with rules To keep the order and reduce the chaos caused by love and being true to what is and not what should...

Ashton Knows Julie is Slipping Away

 Its been a tough couple of days.  Julie is slipping.  Today I was able to get her from the bed to the chair to toilet and then reverse the process.  Yesterday we had to use a hydraulic left mechanism when she got on the floor and I could not lift her...