Diary 20091230

Diary 20091230 I'm in a weird place in my life. In business, I am going in 11 days to make a presentation to some oil business men from the middle east. We are meeting half-way in Monaco, France. I am asking them to support a multi-million dollar...

Avatar

 What an excellent movie.  It can be seen on many levels, but on one level it is about how all life is sacred and interconnected.  The 3-D was great.  The scenery in this make believe world was breathtaking.  I absolutely loved the movie.   I shed...

The Movie Nine

 Just saw the move "Nine".  Didn't like it much.  It is movie about a director not being able to make a movie. On the upside, it has some incredible sexy women in some great dance scenes.  Very disturbing to a guy who has not had sex with a woman...

A Thousand Poems

A Thousand Poems I will write you a thousand poems when you are gone in words that I can not find now. I tell you now so that you can look for them inside me where they are now hidden neath the fear and guilt ...

Right and Wrong in Blogging

 I use Thoughts to be the real me, without any filters.  Whatever I am thinking in my head, or feeling, I write down.  I am always amazed that if I say something that is out of the norm, like I am wondering what my next woman / wife will be like, I get...

Woman Imagined for the Last Third of My Life

 Woman Imagined for the Last Third of My Life My wife as you may know, has terminal cancer, but is doing well on chemo; however, the long term prognosis is not good. Long term could be months or years. Keeping my "stuff" together watching her...

I Can Be Stupid and Insensitive

 Melody, Even though this is anonymous and you could be a figment of my imagination, we both you are not.   And although the probability of anyone figuring who you are is near zero, it is not zero.   And more relevant, since you read this,...

Tennis

 Well, played great this morning in round robin.  Started on the third court, worked my way up to the first court and won there my first match.  I was losing in the second match on the first court, but as they say, it ain't over until the fat lady...

Melodies Out of Tune

 Melodies Out of Tune Melodies out of tune      bringing me down          making me blue. Indifference worse than scorn Ignored worse than rejection. Rum and more rum          driving back the memories               ...

Whiskey Dreams of Love

 Whiskey Dreams of Love After a few too many whiskey and egg nogs and a rambling letter to Melody I crawled into bed next to my dog who is next to my wife. She had long since gone to bed and is there now, I'm up, first to write then to work on a...

Learning One More Thing about Melody

Learning One More Thing About Melody I was doing grocery shopping when she called from the club, more precisely the pharmacist was helping me find some medicine for my wife. I just walked away from him and talked to you, Melody. You laughed...

We Are Chemistry

We are Chemistry If you look at how the brain works, individual cells undergo chemical reactions when simulated by small electrical impulses. The cell then generated its own electrical chemical response and sends a small charge down its own axons...

Temporary InSanity

 Ok, I plead temporary insanity.  Sex has always been like a drug to me, a powerful one I might add.   Thanks to running across the series of pictures by Julzie, quite by accident, I was freed at 71 hours.   This makes me feel compelled to...

Diary 20091209-3

 20091209-3 Well, things just keep getting stranger. My life always seems to have unusual twists and turns. It is almost as if "the force is strong in me" as they found for Luke Skywalker. Okay, maybe there is some other explanation, but at times...

Diary 20091209-2

 20091209-2 Quick lunch time update. Wife off to cancer lunch, I was late for dentist but ok. Teeth cleaning. Well, Zoe is not Melody. She is a very beautiful woman, however. She was not very good at operating her computer and the camera got...

Diary 20091209-1

 20091209-1 Wife woke me up at 6 am because the water pressure in the bathroom was low. Turned out a toilet was running in another bathroom which lowered the pressure in our well. Great repairman shook the handle and went back to bed. Of course, my...

Diary 20091208-3

 20091208-3 Well that was an interesting day. A few twists here and there. Tennis was okay, I was still a little sore from too much tennis this weekend. And, I didn't get a good night sleep last night because of the sudden appearance of Zoe. It...

Diary 20091208-2

 20091208-2 Zoe, sorry to be so impatient. I just had a crazy thought. You could even be a guy? Whow, I wish my brain hadn't gone there. So, why did you pick me? You only asked me two do three things so far: 1) to protect what I know about...

Diary 20091208-1

 Well, Zoe didn't want to create a thoughts account since she was paranoid that someone would be able to trace it to her.   So, I created an account for her, ZZoe, since Zoe was taken.  I sent her the password, now let's see if she uses it.  She...

Diary 20091208

 Diary 20091208 Of course, the big thing today is the mail message from, lets call her Madam Thoughts, yesterday. Last night I was asked to send my Skype address to her email and wait for further instructions. She said if I would do without and...

Diary 20091207-Revised

 Diary 20091207 Revised Woke feeling rested but still sore from all the tennis this weekend. Reached over an ran my fingers through my wife's air. It is short, gray and kind of wirey, a result of the chemo and radiation. She sleeps through my...

Time to Get Back to Work

 Well, didn't play that well in Mixed Doubles, just a little low on gas.  I was up until 1 am and then got up at 7 am, plus five hours of tennis yesterday.  We still made it close, the two women came up with some clutch shots. At 6-7 in the second set,...

Accepting the Signs

 When Melody called on Friday night about whether I was going to show up for the round-robin on Sunday, there was important information I missed, or ignored.  She said she had been busy and had not kept up with her reading, meaning my blog.  My brain...

A Little Sad

 Well, I played about 5 hours of tennis.  The last match just for fun against a 4.0 woman named Kim.  I gutted it out but was just too exhausted, I lost 4-6.  She was a good player.  I picked her out from everyone in the tournament, she was attractive,...

Off to Play in a Mixed Tournament

Well, I wonder who my partner, a woman is going to be in the tournament.  In general, I do not get along with women on the tennis court.  I take my tennis pretty serious and do not seem to be able to mix the proper social graces on a court.  Will let...